塔罗牌里的我

怎么我的眼泪会不知不觉中掉落?

我看似那样地软弱和无助吗?

保持沉默就是不要伤害他人

我并不是要刻意逃避什么东西

因我害怕成为饭锅下的黑炭

一个人静静净化我的思想

原谅我不法释怀的坚持

信任的光环我抓不紧

是我的缺陷和失误

pangkor trip 19-6-2010

sch is going 2 reopen...1st wek of holiday,quaratine myself at home...reali boring...2wek back sch ...tis was de laz holiday for f6...

1st time i being lied by fren...they plan for almost 1wek...invite  me 2 go work...as i hv prepared everyting n wait for ying weng...i received jian yuan call...n soon he appear in front of my house...so far he travel 2 ipoh from his hometown...at 1st, i tot he juz came 2 ipoh  2 visit fren...kep playing joke...i still dun believe wat he said...so i called ying weng...ya....they reali made joke...their main purpose is go 2 pangkor...

so slepy on de way go...bcoz few day ago i dun hv enogh slep n hv tea wif my best fren them till midnight...hehe...mayb tired, i had no mood in talking...so i b listener...hehe...

  

 pangkor taxi...pink colour de

 

i tis was 1st time i went...so excited...luckily de weather very nice....hehe...wah...i saw pei hwa in de ship...hehe...prove tat de earth is round...after half hour shipping from lumut to p.pangkor n having  lunch...v started our discovery...haha...cycling on de island...most of us r girl...so dun hv enough energy 2 cycling on de slope 2 reach another beach... de sun shinning, v bcome more blacky... yu heng s de oli 1 so hapi wif tat...

wats de funny ting v hv did...pushing a tree trunk from sea 2 beach... dig de crab hole...self-loving...haha...reali enjoy...unlukily...it juz 1 day...

 

 pink road sign....izit pink = pangkor?

it almost 7.30pm as v finish bath...nex will b our dinner at sitiawan...stomach playing  gdrum as v found our way...v met tat family for 3 time in a day...hem let us met again....1st time eat seafood wif fren...i love 2 eat, bt i dunoe how 2 eat...funny oh?tats y i kep quiet as  they order food...

luckily  xiao ting n yu heng chatting along de way home so jian yuan dun fall aslep...me n ying weng unable 2 force ourself nt sleping...jian yuan able 2 sent all of us home around 12am...im sure he tired 2 drive whole day...again he ned 2 spent 90min more 2 back home...

i love de sunset...it so fast disappear from de sea level...love it shining on de sea...1day is end soon...

thanz all of u...my holiday was nt in blank paper wif  tis trip...coming day, im going 2 sit for exam...so wait me half year more 2 hang around wif u...

harmonica camp 9-11/6/2010

FRESCO Harmonica Ensemble

those f3 n f4 juniors did de prepration for tis camp for months, although it juz 40members take part out of hundred members...almost all f6 member back on 2nd day...v though tat there would b a interchange camp wif a kajang sch...unluckily they din come due 2 gonna 2 prepare 4 competition at s'pore nex month...zanen desu ne...however, v able 2 open our ears n eyes big big 2 gt noe abot FRESCO Harmonica Ensemble...four of them won de world champion 2009...excellent...

v went home 2 take our nessasries 2stay over night...i juz brought my lovely small pillow,sheet n toothbrush along...im shock 2 c germaine's car as he drove into sch compound...5of them suck in a small car wif lots of pillows...i tink they r nt comfortable along de journey except driver...

yee mun arrage her bed...as well help us too...hehe....thanz...

i thought my pillow wouldnt in use since i expected they we r going 2 blow water whole night...at 1st, germaine opened his labtop n plurk in my broadband 2 search for online tv...he wanna 2 watch tat drama on ntv7 due 2 laz esipod...unlucikly, he search nthing...haha...yee mun n me busy wif anz phone call...chee wei n sum yong throw themself into computers games n online...

germaine wear my shoes...tats y he bcome girl..hehe...call germaine as she is totally correct...i purposely uplaod tis phot bcoz he oso purposely dun let me slep well  in tis two days...haha..yeah

after blow water a while...it was almost 2am...i still sms while lying on de "bed"...so again sum yoong said,"small kid is sms-ing"...haiz...he kep on calling me small kid, others follow him so...haiz...enough....let it end after my 19th bthday...

whole night din slep wel...lying on de "soft bed"...germaine ocupy my sleping place...even could hear som 1 nostrils playing music...haiz...no 1 wan 2 admit tat...tats  y i kep awake whole night....

so comfortable bcoz i went home 2 take bath wif yee mun b4 i went tt...damn boring de lesson bcoz mis cheong kep on teaching paper 1...haizz...2hours gone...i went back 2 sch...1st time i c chee wei dun finish meal,n others guys kep drank H2O...juz me n lian shen dun eat chicken, so tat rice nt spicy for us ...haha...

although v r tired n slepy...v enjoy de drama preformed by the campers...almost every drama gt unlogic scene...bt they did a good job since they juz 13-15...

ya...i b the ghost wif others f6members in tis camp...flying here  there...2 look after those guys hu dun wan 2 slep...no choice...v hv 2 off de lights 2 make them slep...bt senioirs play around...haha...

tis camp recall my memories of OC n gwuang hwa camp...i do agree tat camp can enhance de relationship wif fren...thanz...

小熊饼干

those photos r taken by me...hope 2 b photographer...i tink my parent will nt hapi wif tat...nvm...i sucess my dream over here...sori 4 those bear biscuits...ned 2 b my model b4 being eaten by me....hehe...thanz...love u all so much...hehe...^.^

你们比他更重要

他曾经是恶梦。。。
请你们不要再提起他。。。
脑海现在不想拥有他丝毫的足迹。。。
有你们的生活，我会过得比以往更好的。。。

《相逢》张小娴

已好久没真真地看书了...指的是课外书...大概是一年吧！那时家里安装了网路, 课余时间都漫游在网络世界。都怪自己无法拥有坚定的信任，受到面子书与部落格的诱惑，把原有的阅读喜好搁置。幸得小婷借了这一本书，让我回味书香的味道。以往我只须花一天看完一本书，这一次三天的灯火都在燃烧。或许我的扫描机太久没用了、也因这书不在我的喜悦范围。作者以散文反映爱情的想法，讲述人与人从相遇到相处的过程(多属爱情）...有始以来，我都不是感性的人，让我感动的只会是与亲情有关的片段，所以不会像一般女生爱看爱情小说、狂追偶像剧。爱情小说和偶像剧把爱情变成童话式的，难免女生有了太多的幻想。也因如此，我对爱情的书籍与电影还有隔膜。

然而，这书中有些词语烙印在我的脑海里。

“人生何处不相逢，然而，有些人的确是一辈子也不会相逢”
~说的没错，但懂得相处才能延续相逢的美态

“男人的血应该为国家流、为保护家人、妻子、儿女而流” 326

~男人为爱情写血书是多么地不值啊！

“女人的泪留不住变心的男人”326
~女人没有必要为爱情哭泣，爱情只是生活的一部分

“一个人并非不会为另一个人改变，我们都曾经为所爱的人改变良多。然而，我们永不可能把本来的个性全部改变。”328
~爱一个人就得接纳彼此的差异，谁也不应该为谁改变

爱情的观念与其在书籍里摸索，我倒会与朋友分享...那时与姐妹花站在同一线上敌对满肚“道理”的男生...比起看爱情书籍，那更是过瘾啊！

隐藏的影子

我开始了隐居的生活

想要逃离闲话的城市

可是我是影子

阳光把我照射

浮现在灯光下

偶尔的恰遇

假装地带过

不想去争着

没有刻意把自己隐藏

只是我想独自拥有它

还不适宜告布全世界

请原谅我的自私

因你没有权力懂得

牵涉的只有相关的人

希望特别的你会明白我

my sis treat me as babydoll...

haiz...my sis treat me as babydoll...she had 2 go dinner wif my dad since my mum nt feeling wel...kep playing my hair b4 she made hers...no choice i had 2 obey her since i was younger sis...tis was 2nd time my hair bcome curly...luckily it juz tempolary...i prefer straight hair ah...in my opinion, i look old wif curly hair...haiz...as i ask my mum opinion, wats a funny anz she reply..."dun u tink u r nt 14 year old anymore?"...hey mum, i almost19 in coming 2 month...how scare m i carry along my curly hair 2 date my frens later...luckily they said nthing...mayb they whisper in their heart...watever lah...tats over...in conclusion,.2 bcome mature i prefer 2 wear my spec rather than curly hair...

换上眼眶去看清世界

世界太色彩了,我得戴上眼镜把他看清楚

轻薄的镜片陪我经历年少的岁月，同时让我渐渐把身旁的事务看清

耀眼的光线刺痛了眼角、
一罗罗的尘沙冲着我来
恰好有魔力的眼眶分析一切
我要有你的陪伴让自己成长
再也不用模糊内心的猜疑
也掩饰那双熊猫眼